........my life??

           before i start my story..about my life that i am handling right now..i hope that you  will not be shock or wat..okay...

          aun let us start...hmm..

         aun...marami ngsasabi n si mara maganda ang buhay..ganyan..masaya...walang problema hinahawakan..kasi masayahin cya..kaya niya lahat gawin...lahat ng bagay....na ipapagawa naten maganda kasi ang nagalaga at mabait..ang magulang.... pero to tell you the truth guys..my life is not happy ...because...as of now...i'm not living with my parents..i'm just living with my tito and tita..kasi c papa may ibang asawa...and nagwowork minsan s ibang country...and my mom...i don't know where she is...kung nasa heaven b cya..kung nasa ibang bansa ba cya...iniwan niya b ako..ayaw b niya ako...wat i mean ayaw b niya samen..:( i always think of her..why she left me...actually nalaman k lng ung story about s mom k is my lolo who pass away last year january1.soo..i was sad that time..that he passed away ..marami ako..sana gusto malalaman about kay mama.. kaso di ko alam kung panu k sisimulan  magtanung nung buhay pa cya...kasi...ang hirap kasi mag salita...at nung time na un...he was very weak.. actually i was maybe 11 or 12 ata..nalaman k ung boung katotohanan..pero i was hapi that time kasi...sinabi niya...lahat...pero deep inside hindi...nung time na sinabi niya un....nagrebelde ako..di amn...rebeldeng magpapakamatay ako...ung hindi ako...namansin and di kumaen at lumabas ng kwarto for one wik... perohindi alam...ng relatives k...n alam  k ung buong story...at di din nila alam n cnabi saken ni lolo...kasi lolo and i kept a promise..aun..

         it is really painful...na nalaman k ...na i don't have mom...and the sad part here is...HINDI AKO PINAGLABAN NG MOM KO S DAD NIYA...grabe..it is really painful...ireally cried...grabe..parang ako tanga akala k..nanay at tatay k cla lola at lolo.. i don't know y my papa did't want to tell me habang maaga pa...as of now...i keep on waiting for him to tell him the whole truth about mama..ewan k  ba...bakit ganun..c papa walang lakas..na loob n sabihin saken...ung katotohanan...pero...ayaw k rin sabhin kay papa ang lahat n nlalaman k kasi..ayaw k rin cya...nasasaktan..at maalala p niya ung past niya...aun..pero...okay lng....saken...masaya ako...s nagaalaga saken kasi...sinusupportahan nila ako...kaht wala sla...nandyan amn..cla tito at tita...na walang sawa s pag aalaga saken ...

         at isa pa...kahit minsan ginagawa nila ako...slave s bhay kaya minsan pag nakikita niyo ako pagod hagard sa pag pasok..alam n..pero...okaylng..atlis ginagawa ko...ung part k s bahay and besides un din ang kapalit ng pagaalaga nila saken....at pagpapaaral saken kaya lakeng pasasalamat k s kanila n mae tumayong magulang ko...lalo n ngayon pumupunta ako kay lola kasi..mae saket cya..kailangan niya ng magaalaga...and ngiisa lng cya s bhay dahil nag karoon ng family konflict kaya aun...:( kami ni tita minsan c kuya(tito) ang nagssacrifice...for our lola..:) andwe madeour promise to lolo n we aregoing to take care of lola...and not to leave her..no matter wat happened..kaya aun...kinakaya k lng lahat ng problema..kaya minsan s naaapekktuhan ang pagaaral k...pero gagawin k laht para maaus n ang lahat ng problema k...:) at bigyan p ako ng lakas ng loob n harapin lahat ng problema hinahawakn k..

                         aun...sori guys...dito k n shinare ung takbo ng buhay k...kasi
                         gusto laht ng problem k at emotions k ..sinusulat o tinatype s ganitong website...
                         alam k dapat tinatago k lng at...alam k confidential it... pero di k n kaya itago...:(
                          aun...san maiintindihan niyo....:(  thanks for understanding..:)

"happiness and craziness :P "

last year,i was single that time...because i just broke up with my ex last two..years ata basta aun n un ahaha!... because i did't like his attitudes much.. so aun.....last oct.16  my friends ,viani and keb, invted me in carlo's celebration because they wanted me to be with them so i decided to come with them. viani introduced me to carlo.. while she was introducing me to him..he was not looking at me..i kept on saying "hi"  he didn't reply.. but my friends said that carlo is a shy type person. so i accept his shyness because it was our first time we met. during the celebration that night..he kept on looking at me...as if he wanted to talked to me...so he tried his best to talked to me...so we conversed not that long...he just asked me if i really drink..so i responsed with him i said "yes, occasionally.." thats the end of our conversation...that time..i decided to go home because its already late...so i say goodbye to them and and to him...viani and keb "make hatid me in the jip... so...aun.. when i was in the jip... i texted my friend i told him to say thank you to carlo..and happy birthday...because i forgot to tell him that time...then..after one week ..keb txted me...then he told me that he is going to give me a txtmate soo...i said okay be sure....this is a good txtmate...after a minute...i waited . soo...i waited ...then after i waited...my txtmate txted me...that guy..said..hey mara...so i replied....when the time i replied....he didn't reply i dnt know y??  soo...after an hour....he replied ...soo...he introduced himself...so that time...i was shock that it was carlo...soo....we ..txt..txt..until....November 10plus then i always called him "crazy" hahah!...last november11 my friend keb and germaine...and also him....invited me to watch....so...we watched...i was soo shy that time because we sit beside each other..soo...aun while we are watching ...napahiga ako sa knya..because my head was painful that time..soo..i decided to lay my head in his shoulder...aun...he was shaking that time...he didn't know what to do...but..i was shock because he was holding my hands...while he was holding it i smiled at him....taht is the time ..i fall for him...not only that he is the sweet guy i have never met and he is overprotective and good person..soo...aun...after a week .. germaine ask me...if  i already fall for him and do i like or love him...?? and i said yes..i think i fall already with him...then...germanie ask him...if carlo will court me...?? and carlo said yes but how will i court her..?? soo my friend germaine gave him a tips on how will he court me...aun..i think 12 in the midnight carlo ask me...if he can court me...so i tell the truth i said yes ...but i can't answer you rigth now...na we are gf and bf already....after a week...my friends..kept on convincing me...when will i answer him...but that time i already decide to answer him...i went to his house...while  i was there my friends were there...soo...aun..kwento--kwento--aun..that afternoon...i decided to talked to him and tell him... na YES ...iwill be your gf...ahaha! because i think CARLO is the perfect guy for me...i forgot to say that i answered him last december12..the happiest day..ahaha!^^  we were very happy this time..sobra..pero walang umiimik...dahil s hiya hahah!

                                              :)that is the story on how carlo and i became couple...:)